okay, i'm joking. i'm not a radical feminist and i don't think that men run the world. (although i do think it would be a help to have more women in office.) anyway, that's not the point. the point is this: i am in my early teens and have had less boyfriends than you could count on one hand. even so, half of those boyfriends were in third through fifth grade.

so you can imagined how shocked i was when the guy who sits across from me in algebra dropped his graphing calculator. it's the kind that you can use letters on. (sometimes we use it to pass notes.) but anyway, he dropped it towards me and whispered to me to pick it up. i did, but it had a note attached: "lexie, turn on and read." so i did. and this was the message, verbatim: "lexie, i know it's probably to late to ask you this, but i really like you and i need to know how you feel. please write me back soon."

AAAAGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

so i just turned it back off and handed it back like nothing was wrong. "oh, of course not. you're just the guy i've admired from afar for three years and on some sick whim you decide to ask me out. my heart is going faster than an egg beater. no, nothing's wrong. nothing at all!" i told hannah and katie between classes and they started freaking out. i wrote him a note during school today and i was going to give it to him before i went home but then i checked out so i didn't get to give it to him. i bet he's freaking out right about now. it's only two o'clock.

i tried to avoid him all day, but the administration must be playing some sick joke. i have ALL the same classes that he does. i never noticed how hard it is to avoid him until today. and during study hall today (the period where teachers don't care what we do as long as we don't make to much noise), he just props himself up on the back of my chair and started some stupid conversation with me. he waited for me after home ec and made a point to always hold the door.

excuse me, but eww.

i don't know what i'm going to do. i have to go to a seniors banquet tonight. it's really dressy and i know he'll be there. i just sent him an email pretending that i didn't know if it was the right address or not. hopefully he won't bring up this little situation again except on the internet.

wait!! but i told hannah to talk to him for me about not going out! I AM SUCH AN IDIOT! i bet she did already. thanks hannah. thanks a whole lot. but i know that when i told her to tell him that i didn't want to go out, i was just lying. i can't believe it! the one chance i get to go out with him and i may have blown it!

my life is a convoluted web of lies.

© alexa

The counter keeps breaking and pissing me off, so NO MORE COUNTER! Mwahaha!