well, first, i borrowed my friend's digital camera for the weekend. i don't have one, or a scanner for that matter, so that makes it incredible difficult for me to put pics on the web. so just about an hour ago, i was going wild taking pictures of everything in my house so i could share it with everybody. well, i took 14 pictures and then i put the disk into my drive and was looking at them, and HALF OF THEM ARE TOO FREAKING DARK TO SEE! and plus, i didn't know that you had to change the settings to take a vertical pictures. so all the vertical pictures i took actually show up sideways, and you have to turn your head to see them.

but anyway, if you're really just interested in seeing the ones that actually half-way turned out, click here.

now, reason number two that i think i'm a moron. okay. so i went and took all these pictures, uploaded them to my server, put them on my site, and am thinking "yahoo!! i did it! now i'm cool!" and then i think: "gee, i hope no one thinks i'm ugly." right, well, let me explain: i am by no means ugly. i'm not being conceited, but i'm just not! i mean, i think i am sometimes, but overall i am not. but then again, there are just those people out there who criticize just for the sake of fun. i hate encoutering those people, because all they'll do if they see my pictures is criticize them. well, i've thought about it in the short time i've sat here writing this, and i have decided that I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK.

yay! go me! i'm assertive! maybe i have achieved self-actualization. lol.

reason number three i think i'm an idiot. i took piano lessons for eight years straight, and i can tear that thing up. kapeesh? i can play J.S. bach and beethoven like nobody's business. then, i made cheerleading and got more involved in acting and decided that i would take a year off from piano. then that year turned into two. now it's my third year off. i wish every day that i wouldn't have quit. i can still play chords, arpeggios, intervals, and some pieces that were drilled into my head my me piano teacher, but i know that if i stuck with it i could be like a freakin' child prodigy.

okay. i've made up my mind. next year, i'm going to act and be in shows to my heart's content. i'm in the ballet repertoire theater at my high school and i can dance like nobody's business, too. then, i'm going to go back to taking piano lessons. okay, now let me do my math: next year, it will be my 14th year of acting, 12th year of dance, and ninth year of piano. yeah, that'll look good on my resume. screw the sciences. i'm going to have my head buried in the art deparment's ass.

ph yeah, one more thing: i vow to all my friends that next year, i will not wear all black and sunglasses all the time, and i will not walk around en pointe all the time, nor will i make burn marks on everybody's pianos from my fingers flying across the keys. i think that covers everything!

i feel better now.

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